Star-spangled banner

i do see stars.. and yes.. i do see red and blue.. but arent there supposed to be rectangles, and a triangle cut at the corner? why striped? and whats with the 50 stars? ugh.. i forgot.. im not in the Phils. anymore.. i could still remember reciting the "Panatang Makabayan" 2 years ago.. my life was fixed to one dream then.. but now.....

America, what they call the land of milk and honey.. others call it the land of promise.. but really.. is it?? my mind was set in a very optimistic state before i set foot here.. everything was laid out in my head.. my plans, my career choices, and those stuff you call goals.. i had the chance of a lifetime.. i didn't want to blow it.. so now here i am.. stuck here.. just because "i did not want such a big opportunity to pass by".. was this what i really wanted?

do you really meet your dreams here? do you really have the world on your hands and take control here? or is this just a crazy place rambling your thoughts and taking away your sanity? or maybe.. its just me.. am i too weak to handle such strong dreams just waiting to be plucked somewhere?

i had so much expectations.. but i never grasped onto them.. did i make a turn on the wrong path? swerved to somewhere im not really supposed to be? maybe i should just let go and see where fate takes me.. although at this point, im afraid its not safe to be in a "come what may" perspective anymore..

America? a land of promise? well.. promises are meant to be broken anyway..