A Sore Confession of a Sore Loser

cool.. we had this Talent Show thing in school.. it was actually my first time to be in like a singing "contest" and my knees were trembling.. darn.. i just wanted to go home and back out.. it sucks.. i have been in front of a lot of people before.. but not singing.. i decided to sign up to boost my confidence and sing while not trembling.. but i guess i failed the first time.. it wasn't bad though.. the only thing that sucks is that i grabbed the opportunity.. but i didnt take care of it.. all the things I do comes back to me.. i just realized that the more we get older.. the more we had to be responsible.. and that scared me a lot..

i didnt do my best.. i just stood there and sang.. i even sang the song better in my practices.. and that would suck if i won.. i would feel sorry for other contestants then.. no one knew that i had a sore throat.. since that drinking session at Lorena's and my hangover last Sunday.. but then again.. i dont blame it on no sore throat and cold drinks.. i blame it again on me.. for being so damn irresponsible.. just like the last time that i was eligible for that scholarship.. all i needed to do was to pass the requirements.. and guess what?? the chance flew away.. and i just sat there and watch it fly by..

i know i wouldnt change after this.. for a fact i know that i can do better.. but im too lazy to do my best.. its not about me losing.. its not about me winning.. its not about me gaining confidence.. its about me failing to do, or at least try my best.. when i went backstage and everyone was telling me "good job, good job!!", i felt guilty for myself.. knowing that i would be happier coming back in there.. if i did do a good one..